The foreign territory can be intimidating. Unless you have connection to your core. Unless you have united with the part of you that is unshakable and indestructible by the outside world.
The world feels wobbly when you are moving from a place of “I don’t know.” Crumbling comes easy as you sway in all different directions. I have lived the majority of my life in the language of I don’t know. I don’t know where to go, or how to connect to you, or who to be. I played the chameleon, I’ll be who you want me to be. I have felt the rockiness that arises from the empty belly. And declared it time for it to end.
What I have found is that it is ok to be in the space of “I don’t know.”
Because the story does not end there, it begins.
I don’t know, but I am more than willing and ready to find out.
Because I look into her eyes and all she wants is to be free. All she wants is to experience this life, vibrantly and fully. Open and connected to the world around her, beaming with a bold sense of who she is and what she is here for. Thank you Lily, for reigniting this fire inside of me.
This fire has been smothered for too long. The flame is fighting to be free, and when it is, it will light the way. It will guide you to the places you need to be, the people you need to speak to, the steps you need to take. This light, is your core essence, and its waiting for you to ignite.
Sometimes it may feel like your core is smashed with pounds of baggage and smothered out of sight. Sometimes we reach our hands out strangling onto things we believe to make us whole. Or we walk around leaking our power by giving it all away to other people, objects or ideas. Too often we swap our essence for addictions. But underneath it all, we are there, still beating, and burning, and waiting for the flame to flutter.
What is leaking from your power center, the core of who you are? It is scary to let go. I have been scared out of my mind moving into this uncharted territory. But perhaps even scarier to have attachment to objects, people, places, and define yourself through them. How will you ever feel who you truly are if you live all tied up?
Begin at the question mark, and love it all the way until it transforms into an exclamation point.
“I love myself enough to be patient and gracious during this time of self-discovery.”
“I allow myself the freedom to explore as I remember who I am.”
“I love taking the time to listen to what I need.”
“I love nurturing the sacred relationship I have with myself.
“I am a precious treasure.”